gothic sex exchange

[Pauline Law]

On Mon, 2 Feb 2004, B wrote:

> On Mon, 2 Feb 2004, Pauline Law wrote:

> > back in my days as a vivacious, sparkling youth, we used to walk up to
> > people and say, _in person_, "nice boots, wanna fuck?"
>
> That seems *more* gauche-- potentially putting someone in an
> uncomfortable, akward position in the (likely) event that they don't.
> Not to mention the uncomfortable rejection for the asking party.

oh, but i live in a comfortable little bubble where everything social,
always, goes my way!

> The anonymity and depersonalization of the internet is a double-edged
> sword.  Mostly it sucks

yes!

> However, as far as minimum-hassle sexual gratification goes, I think we
> have some potential applications here...

well, you do raise good points, but erg erg erg --

i don't like interacting with machines; or, specifically, i don't like
things that make it seem (as my life has, increasingly so) like our
physical realities are just a supplement of our internet lives. believe
you me, i have had to deal and still deal with -horrrrible- social
anxiety, but i'd much rather deal with other human beings than
depressingly go to my school's housing services office and punch numbers
on a screen and be served by a machine than by a human being[1].  i never
assume that anyone has read my blog; i prefer to call friends over email
when things need immediate attention;  i absolutely adore responding to
letters by writing things out longhand! i have all kinds of thoughts about
this, but not all of pgh-goth-list needs to hear my cerebral, spaced-out
wanking.

i'm not saying that i don't think the internet can be cool, though,
because i've had three simultaneous-yet-separate discussions with you in
one morning about anonymous sex, hot boys and misery -- what more could
one want?


pauline

[1] atms are good because they're convenient, but that housing office
machine is horrrible since it's not even for convenience's sake; it's just
to make everything more machine-like and less human.